YEAH okay so i made a donation thing through paypal.
i’m currently trying to save up funds so that i can begin hormone therapy via informed consent- apparently my first doctors visit will cost anywhere between $50 and $200, i’m not sure how much specifically, but i guess i’ll know once they tell me all of the things that need to be done. i got fired from my doggy daycare/kennel technician job while i was in a psychiatric hospital, and i’ve had some major anxiety and panic attacks about finding another job.
my dog’s body is currently slowly breaking down due to autoimmune disease; there’s no treatment for it, but i’ve been trying to save up money to at least pay for her blood work and other meds if she needs them, although i think i might be able to find a new vet who takes care credit for that within the next couple of days. i just really feel like transitioning is something i need to start as soon as possible now, since my dog is really the only reason i try to stay alive, and once she’s gone i’m really not sure how i’ll be able to handle it. i think maybe starting this now will help me once she’s gone, so i’ll still have something to care about, i guess.
i realized that the gender that had been assigned to me at childbirth was incorrect about four years ago, and i just really don’t think i can do the dysphoria anymore when i’ve already acknowledged that my body is not the way it’s supposed to be right now. so, yeah, any donations at all will help immensely, although i feel very bad about having to ask for money now. i hope that asking for help like this doesn’t appear to be selfish, i’m just really not sure what else to do anymore.